Uncle Danny and Auntie Kira bought this fishy for Gavin for his birthday. Its our first experience raising up a fish. Its a good thing they really aren’t expected to live long because I doubt little Nemo (Gavin picked the name) will survive. Keaton has gotten a hold of fish food and over fed him. Today I caught him sticking the net in trying to catch him. Then just a few minutes ago he stuck fruity cheerios in there. We put the bowl up high but it doesn’t seem to keep Keaton out. Poor Fish!
The past few days I have been caught up in a major fear funk. I’m feeling less and less invincible lately and I can’t stop the “what ifs”. Its a mix of a lot of things. I met two people recently who’ve had children who have died. Over the weekend I saw a house go up in flames. We’ve had issues with my mom that have been stressing. And I am watching way too many shows about unsuspecting people getting killed. Then I wake up this morning to find our economy on the shitter. What a kick in the stomach that was. We’re already in debt and trying to live pay check to pay check as it is. I’m worried about our interest rates and how we are going to manage if our economy collapses.
I’m also worried about something happening to my kids or to John. I am just so paranoid lately. What if our house burns down? What if John gets in a car accident? What if Gavin never gets any better then he is now? What if someone breaks in and steals my kids? What if the economy fails and I don’t have money to feed my kids or gas my car? What if they cancel Fringe? What if Desperate Housewives continues to be 5 years in the future? What if Gavin never potty trains and I have to scrub stains in undies til he is 60? What if! Seriously, I can’t shake them lately. Maybe I need some xanax? Maybe I just need to get more sleep. Maybe they need to just pass the bailout bill so I can sleep again?
I need to go throw up.
Just wanted to post some more shots of Gavin’s birthday session. Also some of my Fat nugget baby Keaton!
I don’t know what to do. Its been 30 days of potty training and Gavin has only accidentally pooped on the potty twice. Otherweise he poops in his pants. And its not once a day either. One day he pooped seven times. They weren’t mammoth poops, just a little, but my God SEVEN TIMES! Most days its just 3-4 times, I am so tired of scrubbing undies. Back when he was in diapers he’d go once, maybe twice a day. I don’t know if he lets a little out and then gets nervous, or if he can’t hold it, or if he just really does go this often. Whatever it is it has to stop. I’ve had to go back to pull-ups for the majority of the day, which aren’t working because he poops more freely in those. At least I don’t have to clean those out right?
Continue reading ‘Coming to you live from potty training hell’
Dear Gavin,
Four Years ago on September 22, 2004 at exactly 4:05pm you entered this world and turned two people in love, into a family. I can’t believe you’re four. I know I say it every year – and I am saying it again: Where does time go? Back when you were born so many people told it would go so fast. I wish I would have believed them. After you were born I didn’t spend enough time savoring your smallness. Instead I did a lot of waiting. Waiting for you to sleep through the night. Waiting for you to sit up, crawl, and walk. Now I look back and I wish I could have slowed things down a bit. Not that I don’t adore you at four, you are awesome.
Gavin’s teacher sent this drawing home on Wednesday with a note attached that read:
“I told Gavin to draw a picture of a person. He used the blue marker then he stopped and said “This is me. Wait something is missing.” He grabbed the red marker and said “I need ears and some flames on my shoes ”
A year ago we weren’t sure we’d ever see a side of Gavin that included constructive thinking and imagination. He was lost inside himself. I always held out hope that he’d somehow find his way out. Now just 3 days shy of his 4th birthday he does many things that are “age appropriate”. Many people are surprised to find out that he has Autism.
Continue reading ‘Foto Friday: I knew you were in there somewhere’
(I thought I posted this yesterday, but I guess I saved it and didn’t post it. So lets pretend its Tuesday) Ten things I hated about this week.
10. People who post on their blogs that they are giving up blogging just to see how many people comment telling them to stay.
9. How John thinks his opinions on politics are facts. (Just because Sarah Palin is a nice person with good values doesn’t mean I have to like her, or respect those values.)
8. Trying to take a photo when my camera is set to video. (always a video of your family posed, yelling “cheeeseeee” and you saying, “oh wait its in video mode”)
7. The old lady at the ATM peering over her shoulder, then puts her hand over the number pad to make sure I wasn’t trying to steal her pin number. Yeah, I really want to steal from an old lady on a fix income.
6. Seeing the reflection in my laptop while its turning on or switching between websites. It just looks double chinned and sad.
7. Skinny Jeans. Who’s idea was it to bring those back? Americans aren’t skinny, and those jeans are ugly.
6. People on Flickr that have a photostream that for months even years has been about their children. Then one day you are innocently looking through it and WAH-BAM they post a nude picture of themselves.
5. People who email me to say they got my email, but they’ll have to write later. Why write at all I say?
4. How my cellphone bill is always a different amount every month even though I do the same amount of calling every month.
3. Watching people eat a big ass hamburger with all the fixins, and the noises they make when eating it.
2. How 9/10th’s of the people I invited to Gav’s b-day party can’t come. We need to make new friends and get a new family.
1. Poop. Seriously Kid just poop in the Potty PLEASE!
I love the internet. There I said it. I love it. This is an email I would send the internet, if the internet were a person.
Dear Internet,
I love you more than TV, steak with garlic mashed potatoes, and debates over whether or not Sarah Palin actually knows where Russia is.
Love always,
Rachael
PS. Included is a BFF necklace. I hope its not too soon to send this?
What a difference a year makes…
Today is my niece Jocelin’s 1st birthday! If you don’t recall, she arrived last year 7 weeks later weighing only 3lbs 11oz. She is truly a little miracle baby. After less then 2 weeks in the NICU she came home and has been holding her own since. She hasn’t had any developmental delays, she has hit all of her milestones on time or early (although she still has no teeth). Currently she is a crawling machine that can take down baby gates when she feels necessary. She is learning to walk too!
We love you Joci Rae! I am happy someone so cute and with the squishiest face can be my namesake. Happy Birthday!
Click over to my sister Kara’s site to see some cute videos of my fat little nugget baby!
After months of searching we finally got our hands on a copy of WiiFit. I don’t like to speculate but I am guessing it was probably the best day of Gavin’s life thus far. When we got the box home an opened it he said “Hello Balance board!”. He was pouncing around barely able to contain himself while John assembled and set up a Gavin Mii. Surprisingly Gavin is an awesome Wiifitter.
Without further ado I give you Gavin playing WiiFit. (please ignore my messy house cause I haven’t felt like cleaning for the better part of a year. Oh and the fact that both of my kids aren’t wearing pants. We have a strict rule that we don’t wear pants on Saturday’s. It keeps down on laundry. Just doing what we can for the enviroment.)
Photo Sharing – Video Sharing – Photo Printing – Photo Books
