Dear Gavin,
So, here we are, another year later—and today’s your birthday. I am now the mom of a seven year old. Can it really have been seven years since you came into this world? Seven years of you as a part of our everyday life? I see little changes in you every day. Changes that I guess I’ve ignored because suddenly I realize you are taller, thinner, you’re your hair is darker, and your face has lost a little more of that little boy look that always made you such an adorable toddler. You’ve become a full-fledged child now, the stage that will take you to your teenage years in just six years!

It’s been a big year for you. You’ve started first grade last month. You had a rough go of it in the beginning. Sometimes Dad and I forget that you have a special set of challenges when it comes to new experiences. You’ve overcome so much in your life that when some of your old behavior pops up, the wakeup call to reality is brutal for all of us. You have a lot of courage though Gavin. You don’t give up. First grade was a tough transition for you, but you did it! You stuck with it and your old behaviors slipped into the distance. Now each day is a new adventure for you, and you’re thriving.

This year marks the year I stopped knowing everything. I used to be the person who could answer any question you had. I enjoyed living in that facade. Now? I get a lot of “Well, you don’t even know that.” coming from your mouth. It’s been rough. I will miss having all the answers. I figured I’d have at least four more solid years until you came to the conclusion that I was not “all knowing”. I guess I should have known it would come sooner, seeing that you’ve been programming since you were five.

This year also marks the year you stopped calling me Mommy. At this point I am just your “Mom”. You don’t even allow me to refer to myself as Mommy when I talk to you. I am not sure why. Maybe first graders are too cool to have Mommies? I am definitely going to miss being your Mommy. I know I’m not ready to let go of the comfort that comes with that word. So bare with me as I continue to refer to myself as Mommy until you are 57 – it’s just too hard to let you grow up.

You started expanding your hobbies into sports this year. You started soccer this spring, and continued this fall. You promise me you love it, even though you’re not the star player. You still make me so proud that you get out there every game and run with your team. You finish each and every game even though it’s hard for you to keep focused. I’m proud of you for having the guts to get out there and take pleasure in every single game.

You’re still a computer genius. You write programs every day. Bill Gates is going to get a run for his money in a couple of years. For now he is your greatest hero. You dream of growing up to be just like him; a computer genius by day, and a philanthropist by night. You’ve already got plans to give all your money away to Homeless people. For that I am overwhelmed with delight. Amazing can’t describe you adequately – you are mind blowing.

This year has been hardest for me. I’ve had to learn to let go, allow you to make your own choices, learn to success and fail all on your own. It’s been a difficult ride. There are times your choices make me so angry and times you frustrate me with things you do. Although some of my frustration are due to my own shortcomings. I am more often proud of you, because quite often, when I least expect it, you do something remarkable that astounds me or fills me with the kind of joy that only a parent can know.

You have taught me many things about myself, Gavin. You have shown me that I am capable of being a mother, despite my faults and shortcomings. I am learning with you every year buddy. I hope that when you are old enough, you will one day be able to look back and say, “My Mom may have had her faults, but not letting me be myself wasn’t one of them.” I hope you will always know that no matter where your life takes you, no matter what you achieve, no matter what mistakes you might make, that you will always, always, have my love. Happy birthday to the best little boy in the world!

You are one of a kind, Gavin—and I’m not just saying that because you’re my son. You are so much fun to be around; your passion for life is contagious. I am the luckiest and proudest mom of the most beautiful and hilarious seven-year-old in the world. Everything I do in my life, I do for you and your brothers.
Happy Birthday to you Gavi-Goo!
Love,
Mom
